Ness

the only way out of the labyrinth of suffering is to forgive | @QueenxNess_ 👈🏻 gamer acc

[Ness @x____ness____x]

he said: how much a month to get twerking vids?
me:

[vibelyra 🦢 @Vibelyra]

take care of what you love before it becomes a memory

[Ness @x____ness____x]

if all you ever want to do is play a game and watch videos of that game, interest will be lost in .02secs flat. Js.

[Ness @x____ness____x]

the hardest part about losing a parent so early in life is that when you’re successful, you can only hope they saw and are proud.

[Ness @x____ness____x]

1/6/26
took my wedding ring off,
first time in almost 2 years.
turned to show my momma,
as if she were in the room.
love can be so intense,
heart pound out of chest.
loss is the sound of
wave after wave crashing around,
trying to drown.
myself,
i hope,
found.

[Ness @x____ness____x]

I miss you

I see you in the mirror

You loved me through every phase of my life until now

You won’t be there for the person I become

How can I move forward in a world without you

I loved you so much more than I ever told or showed

[Ness @x____ness____x]

I said “I’m a retard”
He said “but you’re MY retard”
😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

[Ness @x____ness____x]

Have some god damn standards for yourselves men. Stop chasing a divorced woman who says she’s uninterested. Stop getting mad and petty when she ghosts you.

[Ness @x____ness____x]

Why do I feel like I have to apologize to a man for “being a bitch” and telling him I’m not interested when I’ve BEEN telling him I was uninterested but I finally say to leave me alone and I’m a bitch?…like I don’t want you I don’t want anybody. No means no like holy fuck

[Ness @x____ness____x]

how could u, who constantly preached don’t let anyone walk over u, be the one person who continued to use me. That’s why I ran to Seattle. You needed me so much that now I don’t even know who I am without u. who could I have been with u still here? Who will become without u?

[Ness @x____ness____x]

The part I just can’t understand is how ready you were to leave. I had to be the parent for you my whole life. I had to take care of lil bro. Keep him away from what happened to me. And you were ready to die? Leaving me with all the responsibility…again? how could u?

[Ness @x____ness____x]

if a man is trying to “woo” you and his first line is “I need an older woman with experience” RUN. Wut he really meant was “my mother does everything for me and I have no actual concepts of what being a man is or even the basic necessary knowledge to take care of myself”

[Ness @x____ness____x]

In an old friends stream who was playing with some other mutuals, they heard my name & all got so excited. said how I had been the best female in the comm. Warmed my heart but I wasn’t the best & my love for the game has been destroyed. I miss the good times tho. 🥺

[Ness @x____ness____x]

my red flags:
-constant need to please every1
-daddy issues
-dead mommy issues
-divorced
-not moving away from my only brother/family who’s raised me
-emotionally unstable
-possible multiple personalities
-mouth of a sailor
-nic/thc addiction
so why u still tryna hit??

[Ness @x____ness____x]

a man that talks a big game usually has little to no follow through. a man who takes action and shows you his game, that is rare.

[Ness @x____ness____x]

I’ve just come to the realization that you always had been a pos. Cheating your friends out of accounts, lying about sooo many things(too long to list), and using people for what you got from them. Idk how I ever loved you when I didn’t even know who you were…now i do.

[Ness @x____ness____x]

I had the best dream last night. You were still here. I could smell you and hear your laugh. But when I opened my eyes, reality set in. How is this supposed to get better? I’ll never stop missing you. How can I live the rest of my life without you?