Even then I can’t make much of difference in either of those kids lives with the small amount of time I have with them, stressing over something that is outta my control is just deteriorating me mentally. And all my efforts just get washed away so easily.
I’ve always put them first and nothing good has ever come out of it, for me atleast. I love them both with all my heart but I feel like I deserve the chance to be selfish and care about my wants without being judged.