thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt

thea | they/she | 21 | shtwt and edtwt | major tw | pls dni unless you're shtwt or edtwt

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

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[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

I honestly cant do this anymore I want to give up

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

im doing so terribly i just cant understand why i cant just die. there are children dying from cancer, families praying for miracles to heal their loved ones or let them return home safe. let them have what time I have left. I dont deserve it.

[mina ཐི♡ཋྀ @noctiir]

being mentally ill is cool because other people your age are actually achieving things and you're just like umm, well, i didn't kill myself today:)

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

@Violetsilenced hey love, I dont know if this is any comfort or not but this is very common in young people w bpd!! it gives u a sense of safety and security, but the reality is that you are very capable of being safe and secure even outside of a ward, it just takes time to reteach your brain 🫶

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

im in so much pain, my body hurts so bad :(

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

I cant keepdkung this is cant I can't I cant i cant llease if there is a god pleaseim praying im asking you to let me die I can't do tusk anymote

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

it's nit fsir why didhy it work ehy couldn't it hsve just worked fucking why

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

ended up in the icu as I became completely unresponsive, I got moved to a gen med ward for a few days and then the psychiatrist said I was fine to go home despite me still being actively ready to end it (after already having tried to do so) I actually give up there's no hope

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

have no clue how or when i got to the hospital but just woke up with 3 mf cannulas in my arms?????

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

have no clue how or when i got to the hospital but just woke up with 3 mf cannulas in my arms?????

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

I dont wanna do this anymore im so miserable all of the time it never gets better it never will get better

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

@parcium my love, if you need to talk please know my dm's are open for you always. I'm only a message away. if you just want somewhere to vent and for someone to listen, im here. if you want someone to offer advice, im here. you are so very loved 🫶

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

really not doing well really not feeling safe really not wanting to keep living like this!!!

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

@parcium no literally why are people contributing to this false honestly kind of gross idea that suffering is beautiful because it's not

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

@BLADEG0RE yeah i don't even know why they were open if they didn't have the staff to do anything to help anybody honestly :// thank you, i will try 🫶

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

tw sh, sfx makeup practice for Halloween!! not real!

mmmm,,,, tried to do the "right" thing and get it sutured but the urgent care didn't have the staff to do it so I guess we open healing. not doing well but when am I ever. dont think I'll ever be "better"

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

it's been nearly three months since my dog died. I miss her so much. I just want to be with her again I want to hug her again I miss her

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

@parcium you are one of the kindest humans to exist aiden, you aren't annoying or depressing. you are so cared about and loved 💜💜

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

my physical health has gotten so bad and it's making me spiral mentally I'm so exhausted

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

should be getting some short acting dex soon for when taking vyvanse isn't appropriate so hopefully that helps

[thea ⋆⁺₊⋆ ☾⋆⁺₊⋆ shtwt @xencapsulatex]

food noise is so bad I've gained so much all because I've been inconsistent with my stimulant meds for adhd and the food noise has just creeped right back in I hate it it's like a compulsion at this point