xia ☁️

dx ana & purging disorder ; 6.5/11kg

[xia ☁️ @xiaweeps]

timeline of my speedrun i will update!!

may 7th: bmi 19.1
may 21st: bmi 17.5
june 6th: bmi 17.3
june 21st: bmi 16.6

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i have a rlly bad craving for any type of cereal

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idk when to weigh myself i think im retaining water bc i joined the gym but i gen cant tell if im bloated or not i js feel fat all the time

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this morning i felt skinny but im so scared of reverse body dysmorphia that i chugged water to make me bloated😭😭

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@kotonohaa99 it does!! it was sprinting w breaks since the gap bw the door and sink is pretty big so kinda like hiit lol

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running from kitchen sink to purge and then to the door to check that noones coming counts as a workout right

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@scabiezs thats not me🥹🥹

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accountability ೃ༄*

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@sundialerr i wish that was me💔

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the urge to admit to my therapist that im relapsing and beg her to admit me to the ward again alone to be as far away from this psycho bitch as i can

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my moms somehow pissed that do massages that relieve constipation saying its abnormal and shes punishing me by making me cook to replace everything i eat??????? this petty bitch istg ill js start fucking starving

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@wlforwon cake mono

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@tuliprexic @suisouls omg u r so pretty!!

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29/6/26

560c
gym 40min

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+ 600 cal limit
+ burn extra cals off (gym doesnt count)
+ if u cant burn it off, subtract from next day
+ cals can b saved 4 next day
+ gym 3-5x per week

from 29th june to whenever i can weigh myself, ill adjust intake accordingly if i lose enough weight :)

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@_leopad same these pics make me go insane

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im so tempted to slit my wrists infront of my mom i fucking hate her

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i was gna do no salt as a rule but all my nice seasonings have salt

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@alphaguy902 ew edater

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@caphellfire if thats ur ankle then MEEEE I LOVE DOING THAT