march was amazing
i requested $20,000 in two weeks,
dopamine was at an all time high
then april comes and i attempt to scale across every prop firm, max allocation was something i dreamed of
this led me into some dark times, i blew so many accounts, gave back so much of profits and lost all confidence in my trading
finally decided i was done tilting and told myself to slow down
i decided i will only trade one firm until i get another payout, road to a profitable May starts now
today almost broke me
i had an insane entry for the 200pt dump this morning, but i panicked and took my TP at ~40 pts
i was up $400x5 - $2000 on the day but after watching the price continue to dump, i was left with FOMO and couldnt step away
i proceeded to force trades and wiped out my $400 profit. now im red and praying to end the day green.
i was able to catch longs and end the day 200x5. half of what i had originally
i really need to control my emotions, almost turned a green day into blown account day
you can lose it just as fast as you can make it.
ego takes over, you start chasing the max, then blow countless accounts
the ones who make it long term recognize it, fix it, and come back.
most don't. they just blame the market and quit.
@DiegoBTrades no one realizes how much hard work it takes to consistently post and build a following, i used to think it was easy but after i took the first step i realized it requires dedication fr
overall a great week
but after copy blowing so many accounts, i’m now struggling with size
plenty of A+ setups this week and somehow i only felt comfortable entering with 2-3 micros. can’t help but feel like i left too much on the table