do any of my rivals moots i made lately wanna collab stream sometime? i have so many alts i need to place and i need to stream more but the community makes this game solo q unenjoyable :<
yeah this happens a lot to me, especially against spideys for some reason he can uppercut me when i'm fucking cloak fading and kill me still, they refuse to address cloaks bugs. he's had bugs since idk how long, sometikes he has delays as to when you can switch to him, it's very inconsistent, you have to almost do it preemptively just incase it doesn't go through the first time
people spreading narratives like this is so harmful im ngl, and so misogynistic.
if i wanted to continue playing pro, with sentinels or not, the option was very much still there for me (especially with the strategist shortage in NA lmao)
but I couldn't, not with the way my body was failing me, both mentally and physically
i have hashimotos disease, which is triggered by stress, and legit makes being human unplayable LMFAO
competing IS stressful, its fun as hell when ur winning- but its stressful.
my body was failing me; brain fog, fatigue, pain, inflammation on my face and neck... it took awhile for the doctors to get me on the right doses of thyroid medication.
ontop of that, this is when we found the nodules in my neck (they were causing me intense amounts of pain as my body was quite literally ATTACKING them) and had to get them biopsied for thyroid cancer, with a few of them being the highest level of suspicion on the ACR TI-RADS scale
we are still waiting on the biopsy results.
i am very proud of what i accomplished last year, i was the first woman to ever win a tier1 tournament in the hero shooter genre, and the first female pro to ever play for sentinels. going to LAN and meeting all of the Chinese fans who showered me with (loki) gifts.. my heart will remember it forever.
but please listen when i say, that lifestyle was killing me. it has nothing to do with me being a woman, and everything to do with me having a chronic autoimmune disease 😭
(and this isnt even mentioning my mental health ontop of it all)
content creating, and being able to do what my body needs during any given day, has been working wonders. I feel so, so much better.
theres been plenty of days where i have to tell my chat, 'hey guys I feel ill af im going to go rest', and its FINE because.. i dont have scrims to attend or a tournament to prepare for.
I would never be able to do this if I was still actively playing pro, nor take the time off to go to doctor's appointments and the hospital.
so please, shut the fuck up and make sure you have the facts right before you say something so misogynistic and wrong ❤️
ive seen so many people saying similar things and roll my eyes each and every time
just so everyone is aware. @Gomakazi1
has been banned 4 seperate times for cheating
has his own former teammates saying hes cheating
has his own former friends saying hes cheating
has 90% of the pro community, saying hes cheating
and now, we have HIMSELF saying hes cheating
my first tiktok with 1k likes :D ik this is nothing to many people but as a person who avgs 5-10 viewers a stream and 50 or so likes a TikTok, I'm rlly geeked that its getting some traction :D