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tw // ed — attempting recovery !! dni proana

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

hi ^_^
— not new to edtwt, used to be @kooskinny but made a new acc as a fresh start to recovery !
— pls dni if you’re proana / interact with any spos

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

the need to lose weight is slowly consuming my brain whole again

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

what if i lose weight “healthily” and pretend it’s not a relapse

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

i was doing so fucking well and then idk why the fact that i’ve gained weight has been upsetting me so much :( i just wanna get down to my lw again

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

i think i’m relapsing lmao

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

wanting to lose 10kg vs wanting to gain all the muscle

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

@oats_obsession i will ty !! <3

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

tw // drugs

i’m back to ask if i should smoke marijuana if i have anxiety

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

mine
wake up 6:30
school 8:00 - 3:00
lunch + rest 3:00 - 4:00
meetings / piano / gym 4:00 - 5:00
hw 5:00 - 10:00
dinner + rest 10:00 - 11:00
read + get ready for bed 11:00 - 12:00

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

@venustargirl i try to get at least 6 but i usually end up getting around 4-5 :(

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

moots going to school how many hours of sleep do u get usually

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

@stattostat gjg stands for green juice girl and its basically a space where people encourage each other to be productive and healthy (by studying, working out, eating well, etc.) seems super fun and positive to me :) also agree that edtwt has been horrible lately i hate it

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

should i join gjgtwt i feel like that would be better for my mh than staying on edtwt

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

or maybe studytwt idk

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

I NEED TO DO MY WORK OMG

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

maybe i’m being too dramatic idk i’ve had a shit day

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

i haven’t told my irl that i’m recovering but i told her that i haven’t been counting calories so clearly that’s an indication right ???? and now she’s talking about throwing up food 👍 appreciate the trigger

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

i cant do this anymore

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

i want to fucking relapse

[rain ❁ @xskcal]

i give up