christi

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[PEEKABOO @peekaboobeats]

Hey everyone

To be honest, the past couple months have been really tough for me mentally. My self esteem has been at an all time low for myself and really don’t know why. I have been struggling hard with working on music, and just being excited about new things. Maybe im burnt out from my last album, which I’m extremely proud of, but it was definitely a lot of work, but again I really don’t know what has made me feel like this.

I haven’t been posting on socials too much because I’m just trying to better myself as a person outside of music, removing bad habits, and trying to just feel better about myself that way rather than doing the same thing over and over everyday like I have been doing. Trying to set a routine for myself and find some balance in my life, while also living this hectic life of touring, which I will NEVER take for granted.

I started therapy a couple weeks ago and it’s been really helping myself feel a little more grounded and feel like im gaining some control back on my life and motivation, but it definitely will take a lot of work.

I really just want to say that if you are struggling with mental health, this is a reminder that you’re NOT alone, and it’s so important to take those first steps into taking care of yourself first, and make those sacrifices to better yourself. It was so hard for me to even admit this, or to even start the steps to take care of myself.

So I just wanted to say, hey I’m still here, and excited for these upcoming shows and festivals I have, and that I am going to try the best I can to be more present on socials and pop in once in a while, but just wanted to be open a little bit and hopefully this resonates with someone else that is also going through similar things.

Really appreciate all the love and support

Matt

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@chunky_rat She’s from my town in Maryland there’s so much lore 😂😂😂

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2 years alcohol free sponsored by Diet Coke fr fr

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I be trying to get out of bed at 7am while my cats are literally parkour fighting around me

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I met a staff photographer for Getty Images a few years ago, and he just followed me back on my amateur photography page 🥹🥹🥹

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Saging the sickness out of my body since antibiotics didn’t wrk

[Mason 🌻 GAYBIAN!!!!! @verdantwyrm]

Happy Sexual Assault Awareness Month to

- People who can't remember the details
- People who can't speak about it
- People who are still scared
- People who are still in contact with their abuser(s)
- People who still love their abuser(s)

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If I say “ok fine nbd.” it is in fact a bd

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Took a geeb on the rocks last night, and by rocks I mean red.

[Lissa♥️♥️ @lizzkelly7]

things you can burn to reduce stress:

- marijuana
- pedophiles
- sage
- racists
- lavender
- patriarchy
- rosemary
- capitalism

[christi @xti98]

They really popped off with love on the spectrum

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Unfortunately to others, I am anti dress-code

[Science girl @sciencegirl]

Cat brought his favorite toy to the bowl so they could eat together

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There’s a thing called nurses intuition, ESPECIALLY as an ICU nurse. I truly believe Alex knew he was about to die & he still chose to protect his community till his last breath 💔

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Oh I’m not THAT depressed I just hadn’t taken my adderall in 2 weeks 💅

[christi @xti98]

I took over a week off from work for the first time since the hurricanes, & I I’ve been sick/in pain this entire time and unable to enjoy 😔

[interpretation @materialcritic]

Years of personal growth can be unraveled in 2 days at your parents house