pansin niyo ba, the older you get, the more quiet you become. you realize how much nonsense you've wasted time on. you start to accept things for what they really are and you stop forcing friendship and connections with people. you just... grow.
maybe it's sounds so selfish but honestly I feel so comfortable when no one's at home. being left at home while no one's around feel soooooo so gooooood, I feel emotionally and mentally safe. a home feels like home when no one's around, no loud anger, no shaming ksksksksks
nobody knows how many times I've sat in my room and cried, how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down, how many times to hold back tears. sometimes the strongest people are the one who cried behind closed doors and fight battles that nobody knows about.
I came from a family where they donโt talk about feelings. We fight our battles without telling a story about it. So if you find me troubled and quite, please do not ask whatโs wrong , you wont get me honestly. Just be present even without words , you can brighten dark spaces