sometimes I donโt want an apology. I want you to experience the exact situation you put me through so I can see if you still think that the shit was okay. ๐ง
People who spend long periods of time at home and slowly lose the desire to go outside often think they're just resting. But psychologically, many of them are experiencing something called mental rumination. It's a state where the brain starts slowing down while the number of thoughts inside keeps increasing and the motivation to do anything slowly disappears. The mind gets stuck in the past, worries about the future and burns itself out. This isn't laziness, it's a nervous system stuck in survival mode. And the longer it lasts, the more distant normal life begins to feel. And the difficult part is that you usually can't escape it through one massive burst of motivation. And sometimes,recovery starts with just one small step.
if there's one thing i have learned from the women before me, it is not to make huge life altering sacrifices for men. They do not deserve such loyalty and commitment