yearlyblues

a collection of thoughts and blurbs

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

an eagles just another bird, until it can spread its wings.

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'i tried so hard to play their way'

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grown men don't wet their lips at old pictures and let their hands wander over baggy clothes; grown men don't beg for forgiveness.

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"when we rough-house, i just go red; and there's nowhere to hide."

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father's love; i don't know who i'm fooling, if not myself.

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'pray or he will burn you'

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"my skin's always been too thin, always a size too small. i feel too much for arm punches in the backseats of mini vans, jokingly swished hips in dark-lit basements."

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that itch, that rhythm it commands, over-powers you. you're trying and dying, trading spit and blood for lust and rusted gold.

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"nowhere i can put this tangled mass of difference inside me, nowhere to run from the feeling that i can never be you. i'll never get what you have. i'll never be what you are."

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'square peg, round hole, and one hole too many.'

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'i can see you inside / full of sin, full of pride'

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but grown men don't sleep with teddy bears

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

7am. you conduct rituals to save face and pretend your eyes dont wander, spitting lesser evils through bared teeth

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

an eagles just another bird, until it can spread its wings.

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

'i tried so hard to play their way'

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

"when we rough-house, i just go red; and there's nowhere to hide."

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

grown men don't wet their lips at old pictures and let their hands wander over baggy clothes; grown men don't beg for forgiveness.

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

father's love; i don't know who i'm fooling, if not myself.

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

'pray or he will burn you'

[yearlyblues @yearlyblues]

"nowhere i can put this tangled mass of difference inside me, nowhere to run from the feeling that i can never be you. i'll never get what you have. i'll never be what you are."