I may cancel plans randomly and then you see me outside. I may stress about having too much on and then pick up a new hobby. I may complain about my weight and then head off to a buffet. All I have on my mind is survival, everything else is a luxury.
Trying to understand my inner emptiness. This absence of emotions that sets in when distractions fades.
Getting to realise that silence and solitude are necessary, they force introspection ๐๐ฟ