The kindest thing literature does is remind you that your peculiar little feelings have always existed. Someone, in some century, was equally confused by love, bored by society, tired of performing, and hungry for meaning.
Btw ICYMI: Red, White & Royal Blue is getting a manga adaptation. Artist is Fuki Mamori. Official distribution starts on December 23rd (no English translations announced for this yet).
deleting later but my hot take of the day is that you can be there for your friends without expecting anything in return but you can also be sad when they dont show up for you