Does this translate to more "knowledge" or not? More repetitive physical experiences and interactions could be worth less than a high density and variance of thoughts, but it feels dubious to say that an intelligent graph-consulter, reader, and/or thinker has more insight.
“There was nothing left for him, except to annihilate himself, except to smash the failure into which he had shaped his life, to throw it away, before the feet of mockingly laughing gods.”
I am so starved of any positive reception that any respect or civility makes me feel weak and sentimental. My desire to live in the hearts of those people forever makes the path of self-destruction attractive.
Attributing equal significance to quotidian acts of decency and kindness that I do to opposite acts is one of the few things that keep me from leaving everything behind