your national anthem

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[your national anthem @yid1999]

I dont wake up anymore hoping this was a dream. I wake up and I know you’re still gone.

[your national anthem @yid1999]

I’m tired. I don’t want to keep doing this

[your national anthem @yid1999]

Feel like a walking corpse carrying all this grief

[Literarium @Literarium12]

- From White Nights By Dostoevsky

[★ @thematrixwizard]

“The Sleeper” (1831) by Edgar Allan Poe

[𝕶𝖆𝖑𝖊𝖎𝖉𝖔𝖘𝖈𝖔𝖕𝖊 𝕰𝖞𝖊𝖉 𝕲𝖎𝖗𝖑 @thejunebugfreak]

PJ Harvey ~ This Is Love

[your national anthem @yid1999]

It’s been 10 weeks since you left. I kissed your forehead goodbye 9 weeks ago. Your absence is so deeply felt. There is no joy this summer

[your national anthem @yid1999]

@04_dfm No you ain’t

[your national anthem @yid1999]

I want to believe in the good in people. But many have stayed silent. It’s bittersweet to see. I’m sorry I thought better of you.

[your national anthem @yid1999]

It's been so long since a lot of people have seen me, it's nice when they still call me their friend. I'll always be yours

[your national anthem @yid1999]

Looking through my brother’s photo gallery and he’s so alive. It makes it harder to understand that he’s gone now.

[your national anthem @yid1999]

Gonna sound so chronically online but my brother losing followers on instagram really hurts my feelings. Idk but I think it’s such weird behavior to unfollow someone just because they died.

[your national anthem @yid1999]

So until death hits someone so close to you suddenly and tragically, you won’t understand how this feels. Not that you’re supposed to and you won’t ever be prepared either. But I have to live with this forever and I will feel his absence forever and I won’t stop talking about it

[your national anthem @yid1999]

Bro wtf I missed the soft cell concert??? I didn’t even know they were touring are you kidding me

[your national anthem @yid1999]

Watching Invader Zim by candlelight

[Archaeology & Art @archaeologyart]

Joe L’Estrange - Old Cat Walking (oil on board), 2007

[your national anthem @yid1999]

I really missed you today

[your national anthem @yid1999]

9 weeks. You’re getting further away

[your national anthem @yid1999]

And once the phone calls started making their ways around. Our house was so full of people and you were the only one not there

[your national anthem @yid1999]

When I wake up, it’s always early, so I’m always aware of this. When I look at my clock and see the time, Jeffrey’s still alive before 7:45am, and he’s dead after. And it’s all I think about.

[your national anthem @yid1999]

I had to tell my bb what happened and I didn’t even understand what I saying, no time to process anything. I was over there in about 15 minutes to make sure my parents were understanding the police correctly and they gave me a case number at the medical examiner for Jeffrey