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@candycuts2much2 what did the before look like?

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taking 8 lax in 48hrs and wondering why my stomach hurts. ik i keep saying this but im ready to lock in i desperately need routine and consistency

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grilled chicken sandwich with blue cheese + cupcake for lunch

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@eutruscangraves @fastingeli it does, each time your blood vessels heal they create scar tissue, scar tissue is harder to break apart to cause the bleeding under your skin so it makes it harder to bruise

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genuinely need to lock in this binging is getting OUT OF CONTROL im up 50lbs

[saanjh 🔮 @dontcrysaanjh]

this is exactly how bad my food noise is

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no food tomorrow i ate it all this morning!!!!! diet soda my best friend will carry me through!!!!

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unsuspiciously buying blades and wound care..

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The curse was not lifted but nonetheless we persevere

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Is the curse lifted

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Is the curse lifted

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@skinnyoverload Me too

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Me in the last year I’m losing my mind kill me kill me kill me

[lari @violetraume]

anyone else in this phase where you're not in recovery but not restricting either. counting calories but also not giving a fuck, but then sometimes giving a fuck. not losing weight but also trying not to get fat??

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@HighonSaturn_ The second one! But the first looks like Neapolitan and I like that too

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1600 burned before 11 am ??

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We got war criminal spoon corner

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I’ve gained sm it’s making me go insane my face has changed and then I see myself in the mirror which makes me wanna binge which makes me gain more. I’m gonna gain it all back guys you don’t get how horrible it’s been

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@trainwreckxic @saulielovescats My brief issues with compulsive exercise ruined my knee and hip and ankle and I was hitting an average of 13k/day for 6~ months but the damage is there and it hurts and it’s hard to walk now :)!

[!Nspirenaire〽️ @Inspirenaire]

Great perspective

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Googling how to relapse bc being this weight is making me crazy but idk how to not be a fatass