have any of you ever been so horrifically mentally unwell that you constantly switch between wanting to tell nobody ab how bad it is and wanting to beg someone for literally any kind if help💀
i try to convince myself that if i get thinner or wear more makeup, i’ll be happy with myself. but deep down, i know it’s a lie. i will never be happy with myself no matter how much i change. i have so much self hatred in my body that no amount of change could get rid of it.
my problem is that i always see suicide as an option 😭 i could be going through a remotely hard time and i'll just think 'i could kms tonight and not have to deal with this' 💀