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(diary account)
What a lifeless body...
#病み垢

[赭 @yoshinitai]

@xoxomirararara let us know if u find that someone twin.

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@lowlessly_ stay positive, u still can lose weight and sanity at least.

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I've lost myself,
a long time ago.
Where does this end,
When will this end..

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I sliced through my neck desirable, no hesitate,
swallowed blood so no scream could escape.
even my own voice disgusts me,
I’m nothing but a flesh with no soul.
I was never worth the air I stole.
Every breath was theft. Every heartbeat, treason.
Take me away, there is no reason.

[赭 @yoshinitai]

I hate how sweet the
metallic blood smell felt.
I hate how I still wanted,
how I deserved more.
bruises bloom all over like
violets across my bones,
from nights I tortured this worthless body against the blades.
I despise it, a body begging to die.

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@dumpsferbaby i use scissors only to fuck myself.

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@updapace @dumpsferbaby if we trust to your sources you'd end up as being a national hero before jesus.

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@dumpsferbaby genuinely, sorry if i was rude dear. I’m just really fucking done with those people who cry in the corner and beg for attention. they have no clue about what the real depression feels like.

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@dumpsferbaby awh, u were so sad right? sorry, just cut your fucking wrists and shut your damn mouth. people don't give a fuck about it. performing self harm for attention is awfully pathetic. grow up before you start calling people kid, you little brat.

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@de_sita504 頭痛いんだけど、イブプロフェンある？

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One last slit across my throat;
flesh rips open inch by inch, veins shatter into crimson rivers,
the blood squirts from my mouth and fills my lungs, drowns me in pure agony..

[赭 @yoshinitai]

День с каждым разом
Кажется длиньше
Выждать чего-то
Что может убить
Смерть призывая
На линии с жизнью
Вовсе не знаешь

[赭 @yoshinitai]

My hands are shaking, the paper is soaked, blood is all over my body,
As the sun rises again, I will be somewhere the light cannot reach,
Some place with no more mornings, with no skin, with no more me..

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This body is a borrowed coat full of moths and rot,
Every movement makes the seams split even wider.
I pick at the threads, pull out wet clumps of myself,
And still the cruel flesh keeps trying to mend.

[赭 @yoshinitai]

I am a shadow that walks among you
People pass me by unnoticed
The eye sees what it wants to see

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Reality never had less meaning
I live in a blur of distorted images
Fractured images of an unknown world

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fuck the attention and those who seeks it. I don't want a single shit from this disgusting human race. watch me prove just how miserable a human being can become, and how far one can actually sink..

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I Should Have Died.

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it’s so hard to play guitar when your wrists keep splitting open again
tried to strum today but the strings just got covered with my disgusting blood, can’t even hold a pick properly with these fresh cuts
the frets are looking like my fucking arms. i hate this body so terribly..

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Dans le noir