you must believe you are special and then go so hard, for so long, with such violent refusal to accept any other ending, that reality itself starts running out of ways to tell you no. you must wage a war daily against the ordinary outcome, until the belief you invented out of nothing in a room by yourself has been hammered into the world so many times that it stops being a claim and becomes reality.
once you turn 20 you have to fight everyday for the rest of your life to not lose your personality & spirit...bc what once came naturally to you will be exhausted into nothing if you don't actively Try. it's terrifyingly easy to become a lethargic, soulless adult
begin.
begin badly. begin afraid. begin with the wrong tools and the wrong words and the wrong hour of the morning. begin anyway. because the carpenter’s hands were not ready when he built his first table - they were simply willing. and willingness, in the economy of a life, is worth more than talent and more than timing and more than any condition the mind invents to delay the moment when the body must finally do what it has always known it was built to do.
I will say it again, in case the first one was absorbed by the part of you that is already composing a reason to wait:
begin.
with the urgency your life deserves.