Men don't just marry for love. Many marry for guaranteed sex, unpaid household labor, and a personal life manager. Deep down, they know it. They just don't like hearing it.
You need boredom. A lot of it. Start by going on walks without music. No stimulation. No distractions of any kind. If you learn to sit with your own thoughts, for long enough, in time they will start serving you. You'll start having ideas once again. You'll start developing an extreme sense of clarity that will shift you into the next stage of your life. All by being bored, which is pretty insane.
This is exactly why you’ll find grown men glorifying their mothers’ sacrifices while having very little understanding of what those sacrifices actually cost them. I remember my aunt once telling me that leaving her job was one of the worst decisions she ever made yet her