ot feels suffocating not being able to tell my irl friends or anyone irl at all about my mental health because i dont want to be weak im tired of alwads putting on a persona and immediately gettint defensive and lashing out when peoply try to get me to open up omg
i have this irl friend and I dont know how I feel about her because shes so much smarter than me and i feel competitive with her but she doesnt even try and i envy her for that and also shes naturally skinny and always mentions how skinny she is it makes me fume I hate her