but in case this all is just a lie and you wrote that big word salad simply to fuck with people then shame on me for hoping people better themselves, but really, i hope you do take this chance to actually reflect on yourself
i want to believe that people can change and i hope you are, but it sounds much more like you use the new year to"turn a new leaf" without actually doing so, especially with your past of not changing despite getting feedback from people and even noticing yourself to an extend