@eriberart I'm also in a similar rut to the point where I lost motivation to pursue it. Ft work can be both mentally and physically draining. I'm trying to motivate myself bit by bit again. Sorry this isn't the answer you're looking for but all I can say is you're not alone in this.
Stolen words:
Look, stranger 👁️
Where are we now? 🗺️
Stand stable here ⛰️
And silent be 🔇🔕
I have my books 📚
And my poetry 📝
To protect me 🛡️☂️🗝️
Every man is an enclave 🏝️
Alone in Wedding 🏙️🧱🏙️
#colour_collective
(with apologies to etc etc)