unfortunately i relate too much with jax as a self hating and socially destructive person who tries to push away people when i start to feel too awful about myself so half of this website wants me dead for not being good trans rep
a hard pill to swallow (but a good one) is sometimes we didn't hold as much weight in someone's life as we thought & it's completely okay. someone's inability to appreciate you doesn't decrease your value in any way, shape, or form.
everyday feels like a constant loop of trying to distract & overstimulate myself so i don’t have the time or energy to be alone with my thoughts & so i don’t kill myself
childhood bullying made me so terrified of being perceived as an annoying person to the point that i apologize to my friends constantly and it kills me that they thought those incessant apologizing implies that they were being mean to me