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Venting account and digital journal. Do not interact if you're below 16. Crazy cat person, do not interact with me if you hate cats.

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This account is for venting.
Please do not interact with this account if:
- You are sensitive to topics such as self-harm, suicide, or similar content.
- You are under the age of 16.
Please read the thread below for more information.

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Splitting your identity and personality is such an underrated coping mechanism.

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I don't even want to interact with the real world anymore. All I want is the ability to split myself so I can hide inside of my dreams and imagination while my mind mentally block out the important things like taxes and work.

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The guilt of living after letting so many living beings die around me for my benefit.

I feel sorry for the livestock that had to die to fill my stomach, I feel sorry for being such a burden for living.

I wish I could just give away and donate my organs so I can stop living.

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I can't tell between my hallucinations and the real world anymore.

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I feel awful. I don't want to be on pills for the rest of my life just to be happy.

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I feel so agitated over everything. I just want peace and quiet, and mother keeps talking my ears off, asking me all types of questions, and berating me over every little decision I make.

I want to make my own decisions. I want to live my own life so badly, but she won't let me.

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I'm forcing myself to interact with the family, and then I wonder why I'm so irritated most of the time.

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I hate how I feel like a toddler sometimes. I feel so childish with the way I act. I'm so clueless about everything that you'll be surprised over how I had even survived for this long.

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Even if I recover from my depression and whatever else I have, I don't think I will change at all. Being depressed is all I had ever known in my entire life. I don't know anything else outside of this.

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I feel like my mind is so complicated that even I don't understand myself.

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I always live inside of my head because there's nothing for me out here in the real world.

I work for the sake of being able to dream at night.

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I want to eat someone who is privileged. I want to eat someone who is happier than me. I won't do it because society doesn't allow it, but I still really want to eat somebody.

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I want to become someone else. Someone who won't need to struggle this much in their life. I want to eat the flesh of someone who's privileged.

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I don't want to face reality. I don't want to see myself change who I am now.

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I feel so empty inside that I wonder if I had ever been truly happy.

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How do I get lucid dreams ?

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@haywoodsforest You're not evil at all. You're quite pleasant to talk to

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The world feels so hopeless nowadays.

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Waiting for my melatonin to kick in so I can hide away from the real world inside of my vivid dreams.

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Living in a constant state of negativity and pain. What is there to live for if I have to suffer like this ?