Um Maya

Memoirs of a stolen toaster

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

“When’s home mommy? I want home.” “I know you do, I want home, too.”

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

يعجبني الرجال اللي يرجع داره كل يوم بوقت معين. يدل داره ومن فيه. كذا رجال. محترم.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

Didn’t even get today right, did you? You’re either doing really well or horribly passing this test. 🤏🏽 This much left in me to just say buhbye.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

Right. Right. Poetic.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I just can’t be this sad over someone who’s never this sad about the same thing.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

If I’m not the first person you run to when you don’t want to be alone, then what’s the fucking point?

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

Even in the most unhappiest of times in my life. I’ve never been so unhappy with the way I accept the things that I do. It’s not going to be like that anymore. I demand to be respected, loved, cared for/about, for the sake of my inner peace.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I’m tired of being tired.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I haven’t been doing this for a while. Let’s see if I remember how to do this. This used to be my poetic release.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

Heated by Beyoncé has been my theme song since summer started.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

“We’re born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for a moment that we’re not alone.” - Orson Welles

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I don’t call them scars I call them souvenirs.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I unraveled, thread by trembling thread, but wove her a world without the weight. I fell through cracks she would never feel, carrying storms in my chest so she could dance in clear skies. I broke beautifully — so she could bloom.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

Here I am in the same predicament. As if I never spiraled downwards, as if I didn’t make major life decisions, as if I didn’t go through major life events, you speak, and just like that, my entire body responds, like it was eager to be watered by you, the wrong person.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

The day I gave up and surrendered was the same day God rewarded me with love for being patient. اللهم لا حسد.

[أخبار السعودية @SaudiNews50]

خطيب المسجد النبوي:

أكرموا ضيوفكم؛ فهو من أخلاق الإسلام وشيم الرجال.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I love people who don’t need to communicate everyday but never fail to give the full update. 💕

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

Self-love is when you look in the mirror and feel respected.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I don’t miss someone specific, I don’t want to share with someone specific, I just have so many emotions that I want to share them with someone.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

Life is easier than our minds make it to be. I am happy to no longer be a part of many people’s lives anymore, choices I’ve made that gave me the option to continue relationships with people, or move on from them. I chose to move on.

[Um Maya @zulumikesierra]

I guess what I’m trying to say is, it’s the involuntary habits that have my mental state shaken for a moment, then that moment drags for the day.