@greheheasy@Preacher_Richer@AutismCapital yes it's quite common in Russia esp if you're speaking with a person from a muslim-looking country or in muslim-heavy region in general
Stop explaining yourself. Let them misunderstand. Read by candlelight. Memorize prayers you don't believe yet. Fast until you see clearly. Delete your autobiography. Burn your manifestos. The story you tell about yourself is a cage. Visit graves of people you never met. Learn their names anyway. Sit in empty churches. Silence is older than doctrine. Stop waiting for permission. The elders are dead. You are the elder now. Teach yourself ancient languages. Not for resume. For resurrection. Walk at midnight. Notice what moves in darkness. Befriend it. Your fear is obsolete genetics. Murder it. Stop journaling feelings. Journal prophecies. Then make them true. Find teachers who scare you. If they comfort you they're lying. Comfort is the enemy. Read the texts they banned. Ask why they were banned. The answer is always the same. Learn to fight. Doesn't matter which discipline. A man who cannot defend cannot build. Stop consuming content. Create doctrine. Your doctrine. Forge weapons from your wounds. Every scar is a lesson you paid for in blood. Collect them. The crowd will call you crazy. That's how you know it's working. Find the others. They're looking for you too. Start the monastery. Physical or digital doesn't matter. Build the fortress. Man the walls. Something is coming and the soft will not survive it.