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[not pro] cw: 103lbs, gw: 95lbs, ugw: 90lbs

[kh's collar @514cal]

@kihyukstrash ooo biss following u for sure

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my parents are very healthy people which is why they wish for me to eat more -- it's not that they bring me bad food, they bring good clean, healthy food but :c i just don't wanna eat and im not even allowed to go on diets n shit

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@taegape_ the truth untold :c

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@kihyukstrash please don't do it, it's extremely addicting. my body is literally ruined now bcs of it

[⋆𝕮𝕺𝕷𝕷⋆ @collard_greens]

my notes app be like:

Grocery list
Future baby names
Password for Netflix
A poem about depression
FAFSA ID
Random sushi order

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i want to try and recover

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i usually pair oversized clothes with other articles. maybe a lose pair of pants that tighten around my waist to give definition but drown out my legs. with that i wear short but fitted shirts bcs i'm a lil chest heavy and shoulder broad so oversized shirts make me feel larger

[Al🌼 @shinnydreaming]

I know ppl with Ed usually wear oversized clothes, but I always feel like other ppl will think I’m bigger than I am and it makes me self-conscious. Just me??

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@kihyukstrash you actually burn calories while sleeping tho ! as your metabolism keeps working regardless. it depends on your weight, height, sex and the hours of sleep you get

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@kihyukstrash losing sleep causes a production levels of a hormone called cortisol to increase in your body. this causes you to retain more fat, so yes it will cause weight gain. tho this might not happen right away and might kick in after a few sleepless nights

[borderline diaries @codeinebvby]

IM PISSED BC MY ANOREXIA HAS BASICALLY DISAPPEARED AND I FUCKING MISS THAT I MISS THE CONTROL I MISS THE CONSISTENT WEIGHTLOSS I MISS PEOPLE TELLING ME I LOOK SICK I MISS PEOPLE WORRYING ABOUT ME BC I WAS “TINY” AND THAT I WAS “SHRINKING IN FRONT OF THEM” PLEASE COME BACK

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and now i feel absolutely disgusting. i hate my body i can't stop pulling at the skin on my thighs

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my eating habits got a little better for a week bcs i was in a hotel room w my mom so i couldn't purge or restrict unless i wanted to get caught

[brinny ♡ @thinbrinn_]

my ed diet

breakfast : ☕️

lunch : 🥗

dinner: 🍎

10:48 pm: 🍟🍕🍗🍔🥐🍞🥪🍤🍓🥓🧀🍰🧁🍭🥧🍪🍩🍿🥣

10:50 pm: fuck

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@r0ttingbones u might as well drink fire or swallow a lit cigarette biss

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@r0ttingbones they don't im sorry

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i haven't purged or restricted in a week and - i feel fine ???? like im not breaking down like i usually do but idk what this means bcs im still fucking terrified of gaining

[♡vile♡ @thinsomnia]

The main reason I feel like my ED is fake is cuz I feel like I "force" myself to restrict? It isn't automatic.

Sure: I CAN restrict, I HAVE lost a decent amount of weight, I'm scared of gaining. BUT.. I feel like I kinda force myself to eat less? Im not TERRIFIED of food per se