“Light is the left hand of darkness
and darkness the right hand of light.
Two are one, life and death, lying
together like lovers in kemmer,
like hands joined together,
like the end and the way.”
URSULA K. LE GUIN
The Left Hand of Darkness
Art: from Jacob Boehme
You’re leaking energy all day without noticing it.
Dr Steiner believed the modern human being isn’t weak — just unconscious.
We don’t lack energy.
We bleed it.
Every anxious thought.
Every restless movement.
Every pointless conversation.
Every minute lost in daydreaming.
None of these are harmless.
They all drain the same inner force.
The human being is composed of 4 members: physical body, etheric body, astral body, and the I.
When the I is awake, everything aligns:
Thoughts become deliberate.
Emotions become ordered.
Actions become purposeful.
But when the I falls asleep, the lower members take over.
The astral body reacts to everything — irritation, anxiety, fear, excitement, ...
The etheric body loses rhythm — thoughts race, the mind can’t hold still.
The physical body mirrors the chaos — tension, fidgeting, restless legs, unconscious gestures.
Even speech becomes a leak.
Talking just to fill silence drains vitality.
You speak because you can't bear inner quiet.
And then there’s fantasy — the astral body wandering without its master.
Steiner’s distinction:
Imagination is conscious.
Fantasy is unconscious.
This is why so many people feel exhausted while doing almost nothing.
Their soul is working overtime in the wrong direction.
Steiner's exercises are practical antidotes:
Hold one thought without distraction.
Move consciously.
Observe emotions without immediately identifying with them.
Cultivate moments of genuine inner silence.
These are methods of conserving soul-forces.
Every moment of conscious attention strengthens the I.
And as the I grows, emotions calm, thoughts clarify, speech gains weight, and the body harmonizes.
The goal:
Become so inwardly ordered that nothing external can pull you away from yourself.
Because only a soul that conserves its forces can awaken higher perception.
Spiritual development doesn't begin by adding more experiences.
It begins by stopping the leaks.
Visualization of Maxwell’s equations.
Showing electric flux from charge, divergence-free magnetic fields, electromagnetic induction, displacement current, and coupled electric and magnetic fields propagating through vacuum as light.
"You are responsible for what you have understood. As soon as you see it you have accepted the responsibility."
(Jane Heap - A Monograph, Phene Press, 1987)
"Only he will deserve the name of man and can count upon anything prepared for him from Above, who has already acquired corresponding data for being able to preserve intact both the wolf and the sheep confided to his care."
(Gurdjieff - "Meetings With Remarkable Men," p.4)
The instinctive centre seems to be closely related to, if not the same as, what is pictured as "the wolf" in Gurdjieff's second series - "the whole of the fundamental and reflex functioning of the human organism." We are told that...
"We take ourselves for granted. We take the fact that we can speak or think or move or see or hear all for granted. We do not realize that we can explain nothing of all this, & that we simply do not know. To become aware of this gives a sense of wonder..."
(Maurice Nicoll)
Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche
“Samsara is mind turned outwardly, lost in its projections. Nirvana is mind turned inwardly, recognizing its nature.”
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(Commentaries, Vol.I, p.118)
Although a number of references to winding up or down, in the context of length of life, are given in Gurdjieff's writing and those of his pupils, the expression and idea, "forces are locked up in creation," seems a little different.
"...enormous forces are locked up in creation. Through the action of the Law of Three the Universe is wound up. Sometimes in nature we can see these forces unwinding themselves, as, for instance, in the element radium."
(Maurice Nicoll)
"The next lecture began precisely with the words: 'Know thyself.'
" 'These words,' said G., 'which are generally ascribed to Socrates, actually lie at the basis of many systems and schools far more ancient than the Socratic.' "
Biblical prophecy researcher Gary Wayne has spent 45 years studying ancient religious texts.
He says Shiva’s story reveals a hidden parallel in end-times prophecy:
"…his love-life—that is, his emotional side—is in a wrong state & it will be the same if he is in a state of fear and feels compelled to do something against his will. To do a thing willingly, from a delight in doing it, will effect a change in you."
"…A man may have some knowledge of truth, but unless he values it, unless he feels some delight in it, it cannot affect him. It cannot act on him, for a man unites with truth only through his love, as it were, and in this way his being is changed. But if he is negative, then…"
"It is only through some kind of delight, some feeling of joy or pleasure or some genuine affection or desire, that a person can work and bring about any change of being in himself. Fear, for example, will not act in this way…"
"…I must know the road I am traveling—the way up and the way down. I learn first to withdraw from activity in order to find this Presence, something real in me. Afterward, I will again go toward manifestation."
(Jeanne de Salzmann - "The Reality of Being," p.82)
“What is required to come to an inner sensation, an inner feeling of reality? We need to know the way, the process, accepting that as we are today we have no means to open to reality amid the activity of life…"