This sentence by Van Gogh hits hard:
“If I am worth anything later, I am worth something now. For wheat is wheat, even if people think it is a grass in the beginning.”
A genius is simply one who has taken full possession of his own mind and directed it toward objectives of his own choosing, without permitting outside influences to discourage or mislead him.
"Lorsque les femmes nous aiment, elles nous pardonnent tout, même nos crimes. Quand elles ne nous aiment pas, elles ne nous pardonnent rien, pas même nos vertus." - Balzac
Your suffering is not unique. Everyone goes through difficult times, trials, and "unfortunate" things. Your life is not so uniquely tragic that you should give up. This is actually egoic self-importance masquerading as victimhood. Get over it and move on with your life.