You ever have this feeling, when you find someone as safe haven? But she was out of our league nor you are of her standards but then the conversation goes on and on. Until you knew you fucked up and can't get away from love. She'll judge you, you liked it. You talk, she'd listen.
And in the end I found myself stopped caring. In the end it didn't really matter all that much. It'll fade to a memory just like everything else.
I'm done punishing myself. It's time to let go and move on.
It was good while it lasted.
Was not expecting to get so emotional from watching KPop Demon Hunters. Wow, I am still living with the patterns I am ashamed of.
I hope it's easy just like the movie.
Everyday is a losing game with myself. But I hate to lose always. As a teenager I always pretended, so, I was hoping that adulthood would make me free. Who am I kidding? Adults are always pretending.
I still think of my bad days. Even the sight of places brought up a lot of memories I wanted to stop recalling. I thought aging up will toughen me up, so, I was not prepared how it went instead.