I’m such a bad person, all I do is make everyone around me sad. What happened was probably my fault to begin with, if only I hadn’t went to their house I could have stopped it. It was all my fault I see no reason anymore
I wish I had an explanation to why I’m like this. To why I cause everyone so much pain. To why no one sticks around long enough…and in the end it’s always my fault because I can never keep my mouth shut.
Maybe I should just isolate myself
It doesn’t matter how many times I tell myself not to try and kms it never works.
I know I shouldn’t but the thought of actually doing it never leaves.
To make things worse school makes me sh every day since I’m back now.
I feel bad for doing it but i can’t stop anymore.
I want help but I don’t want to get better…maybe I’m scared, or maybe I have been depending on this feeling of “sickness” for way too long.
I feel as if I’m not sick enough tho.
Behind all the “I’m sorry please don’t leave me” is just a girl longing for someone to stay, to show her that they care, to show her that they want her.
Words plastered as “clingy” or “too much” were just small signs of a crumbling soul needing someone, anything to not leave.🪽