I now see,
Even in the struggling times (that I put myself into by not listening to the signs of the universe) the universe still had my back, loving me unconditionally
Stopped me from making even bigger more irreversible mistakes
19 sentences,
724 words,
4133 characters = writing a letter to your mum at midnight explaining why you've cut her out your life
-in short:
I'm no longer going to let you destroy me
A practise for 2025:
Don't force things to happen as that's when you will feel ashamed in the future for mistakes you couldn't forsee as you were so "focused" on achieving your goals, allow things to come to you as you walk in the direction of it.
Dreams don't come true the way you want them to, so just do what you love doing, that's your only guarantee for a good life, for happiness, for freedom, otherwise if the end result isnt exactly how you want it to be, it feels like it was all for nothing, or a scam, or despair.