@OrthodoxOrigen Personally I've come to accept that agnosticism on certain topics is just the most honest position. I also feel like Socrates displayed a worthy example of the best kind of life we can strive for. The tao that can be spoken of is not the tao or whatever.
This is why the most perceptive people are often the loneliest. You can't unsee what you've seen, and you can't unknow what you know โ so you just sit there, watching everyone enjoy a movie you figured out in the first five minutes.