Creatives & Closet Creatives—
For a malignant parent being a creative child means individuation and that threatens their sense of self. Seeing their child as an extension of themselves and not as an individual means they must possess them completely.
#narcissisticabuse#scapegoat
@DylanoA4 I am Welcomed in the Home of Ravens and Other Scavengers in the Wake of Warriors, I am Carry Me, and Kill with Me, and Die with Me where the Road Ends; I am not the Honeyed Promise of Length of Life in Years to Come, I am the Iron Promise of Never Being a Slave.- The Dark Defiles
Real people barely have any friends because they're not status oriented. People are constantly assessing/managing and trying to increase their status in their minds and the eyes of others. Real people are indifferent to status if they even notice it at all.
I have free will... and free WON'T. For me not following a routine was a subconscious rebellion; maybe even my first act of rebellion. This lead to habits of comfort/distraction. Detrimental methods of self soothing are very hard habits to break.
Note to self: If you've lived a life surrounded by people who want to see you fail, who've demonstrated that they don't want what's best for you, creating a brand will be more satisfying for you than any other creator. #narcissisticabuse#cptsd
If you're chronically bitter find a new environment. Be skilled at knowing your true voice so that when you hear negative introjects speaking in your mind you know it's not you. I sometimes say 'Not my voice' out loud but more often I stop the thought before it can even finish.
Don't think you deserve the job? Apply anyway.
Don't think your article is good enough? Publish it anyway.
Don't think they'll reply to your email? Send it anyway.
Don't self-reject.
If you have a serious problem with procrastination you first need to address shame and the avoidance it creates. Some of us have a crippling fear of exposure and thus success.
If you find yourself stuck and feeling like things will never change that's because you're in your comfort zone. It's counterintuitive but comfort isn't coziness and good vibes; it's what we find most familiar. It's the devil you know. Do what you promised yourself you'd do. Now.
@CalendlySupport I renewed for 1 year of the standard plan back in August and have been downgraded to the free plan. The contact form doesn't work on my end. Who should I email about this?
@CalendlySupport I renewed for 1 year to upgrade to the standard plan in 08/23 and have been downgraded to the free plan. The contract for isn't working on my end. Who do I email about this?
I have free will... and free WON'T. For me not following a routine was a subconscious rebellion; maybe even my first act of rebellion. This lead to habits of comfort/distraction. Detrimental methods of self soothing are very hard habits to break.