“I’m all through as a human being,” she said. “All you’re looking at is the lingering memory of what I used to be. The most important part of me, what used to be inside, died years ago, and I’m just functioning by rote memory.”
has anyone else ever gotten to the point where you realize you’ve been so passively suicidal your entire life that you never planned your future and now it’s time to act on your future and you have no fucking idea what to do
When someone suffers a severe burn, their skin will be overwhelmingly sensitive, even to a gentle breeze.
When we suffer trauma, our nervous system will be overwhelmingly sensitive, even to "little" triggers.
We don't heal by denying, ignoring, or hating on our sensitivity.
It's a horrible feeling to realize that you're not as important to someone as they are to you. You’ll sense it. Feel it. You'll know it, but choose to ignore it and keep "trying." You've tried enough. You can't force them to care about you or fear losing you. Leave. It’s time.
There's something about winters at 5PM. A feeling of nostalgia where you're missing the warmth of someone you no longer talk to, the urge to go to a home you no longer belong to. An unsettling sadness that doesn't go away.
I dont know how to turn it off. I dont know how to distract myself from this immense dread. I dont know how to keep myself from falling back into that dark place
Suella Braverman is a hate monger who whipped up bile against refugees and migrants, and played a key role in whipping up a far right mob.
But don’t let them get away with making her the fall guy.
The Tories and their media allies all did that together.