i’m struggling very hard with feeling very empty rn. it feels like a phantom ache in my chest where i should have something & i want to both cry & rage yet am unable to. stuck in a sort of liminal phase between Knowing i want desperately to live & wishing heavily to disappear
almost everyone wants to solve it. they give you reasons, advice, no one is comfortable with just, being there. i promise you’re not going to say anything to fix it. they need you to hug them or sit with them or distract them. be a friend. but ppl seem to really struggle w that
Putting this here since I don’t get much visibility.
I’m so very unexplainably sad and I feel like I can’t tell anyone. My body feels heavy, the days pass with no importance, and everyone around me has no clue because I show up. But the saxophones are in fact getting louder.
I'm having the most peaceful crash out of my life right now... like I'm going insane, but also just chilling and vibing. I'm stressed about a bunch of stuff, but at the same time I'm not. Idk how to explain it.
Dostoevsky was right; “Every self-betrayal is a sin. Whenever you go against your nature, your body reminds you.”
If you spend enough time with anything, you start liking it, even sadness. So let’s choose people and spaces that truly elevate us. Your peace is worth it.