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🏹 | #edtwt — 6teen ‧˚꒰ 🥛 ୭ ana-r + ortho | bmi 21.1

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

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i had an argument with my mom but i convinced her to let me stay home , so water fasting again it is ! i’m at 39 hours right now :3

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

now i feel even worse about going to this family gathering because i’ve already lost the past days’ weight , i don’t want to gain again . going also means spending at least 4 hours on my feet walking which really doesn’t sound good . i’m tired .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

𑣲 december 26th .ᐟ

꒰ ⌗ weight + bmi : 60.3kg | bmi 21.6 ꒱
꒰ ⌗ intake : 0 ꒱
꒰ ⌗ burned : 259 ꒱
꒰ ⌗ net intake : -259 ꒱
꒰ ⌗ weight from cgw : 1.3kg ꒱

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

𐔌 . ⋮ 𝓓ecember 𝓭iary .ᐟ ֹ ₊ ꒱

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𑣲 december 25th .ᐟ

꒰ ⌗ weight + bmi : 59.9kg | bmi 21.5 ꒱
꒰ ⌗ intake : ? ꒱
꒰ ⌗ burned : 946 ꒱
꒰ ⌗ net intake : ? ꒱
꒰ ⌗ weight from cgw : 0.9kg ꒱

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

now i feel even worse about going to this family gathering because i’ve already lost the past days’ weight , i don’t want to gain again . going also means spending at least 4 hours on my feet walking which really doesn’t sound good . i’m tired .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

i weighed myself and i’m already back at my lw somehow ?? i was 60.3kg yesterday and after taking lax + water fasting i’m back at 58.9kg today , that’s insane 😭

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

i weighed myself and i’m already back at my lw somehow ?? i was 60.3kg yesterday and after taking lax + water fasting i’m back at 58.9kg today , that’s insane 😭

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

yesterday was such a weird day , i was in a constant state of deep dissociation , so much that i barely got any steps and drank any water because i couldn’t get myself to do anything . i felt very empty , i still kind of feel like that but slightly less today .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

physical hunger currently beating my ass but it’s okay

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

@iitoshiisae thank you eleanor :( unfortunately my family is really pressing abt this stuff so they’ll be on me all day </3

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

i thought i could escape both today’s and tomorrow’s family gatherings but my mom told me that i can only skip today , i’ll have to go with them to our relatives’ house tomorrow which means another day of being forced to eat like a “normal person” . i’m so tired .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

at least i’m water fasting today and tomorrow i’ll get i think 20K steps , so the damage shouldn’t be horrible . i’ll then water fast again on the 28th and go back to my routine on the 29th , when my family leaves for their vacation .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

@luv4bugz thank you ml i hope you’re okay too !! ilysm 🤍

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

good morning , christmas is finally over 🤍 i feel very empty and apathetic today , at least i’m water fasting which makes things a bit better , but overall i’m doing pretty badly

[💭 @cloudwing0]

The autistic struggle of trying to appear grateful enough when you receive a gift

[⭐🪽 @nyucalz]

i am going to k!ll myself why does every single hangout and holiday involve food and why am i the only one who can't be normal and enjoy it like everybody else without any lingering feelings of guilt i'm so sick and tired of this

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

@iitoshiisae i’m trying :’) this is really the bare minimum

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

at 23K rn , i think i’ll just get to 25K and go to sleep . i’m so done with today , i just want to lay in bed and cry for the rest of the evening .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

idk if i can get to 30K steps , i might have to end today at 25K . i feel like i’m on the verge of throwing up and i’ve been feeling this way for hours now , i can’t walk without being in almost unbearable pain . today was terrible , worst christmas of my entire life .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

@luv4bugz thank you lovely 🤍 hope you had a good day

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

@chlonorexic merry christmas lovely 🤍

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

idk if i can get to 30K steps , i might have to end today at 25K . i feel like i’m on the verge of throwing up and i’ve been feeling this way for hours now , i can’t walk without being in almost unbearable pain . today was terrible , worst christmas of my entire life .

[𝓟each @B4BYPEACH3S]

@iitoshiisae you deserve it so much , i’m happy for you 🤍