Ashley M Hard

My life can be such a mess living with #BPD and major depressive disorder
Wanna hear about it?
Hear about it here ❣️

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Yesterday
While walking the 15 min walk to nephew's graduation
The terror happened
The terror that most #BPD and #PTSD ones who #Survived most evil as #Kiddos
There he was
Sis confirmed it was him

13 yrs outta sight

There he was
There he was
...
💨
Where'd he go..!

😨😟😢

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

@IamSandraOh

You know what you know as you know it
As you learn what you learned to learn..
We know what we know once we know
We can't know what we don't know until we know it
However we can't learn what it is to know; not until you know... You know¿?

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Hey....
@IamSandraOh
Mamma...

#Malpractice

#Wrongfuldeath

@nonBPDspouse, back me up
Ive got #BPD, sure, however, don't mean I don't have valid perceptions ...
#Crazy?
Am I?
Or are you who label me that just #Blind

Mamma..

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

@tellmewithep
It's been almost 2 months since mamma left her vessel before she should have...
#Malpractice #Wrongfulldeath
Mamma loved all
How could anyone..
How dare those dumb docs
And screw my brother Eric too
I don't know how to breath...

https://t.co/c3V2VKX2mO

🫂💕

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Spiraling round and round
Listening for the sound
Stars burst out my forehead
Whisps humbly escort our dead
Spiralling round and round
Listening for the sound
All I desire is the wisdom
To earn land in the kingdom
I was sure was external
Is of course internal
Look inside

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Stayed up all night...
#Again
On the public #Bus

1 ish am
"...hey..." I offered to my wife, also #BPD
"What?" She responds
"Wanna BPD tomorrow morning?"
"Deal!" No hesitation. "Who? What? When? And how?" My #BPDPartnerInCrime

@SparklesOfBpd

Question, to #BPD or #BackDown?

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

8 23 2024
"Time of death-" I breathed in reverence "-4:52 pm.."
Yesterday was her funeral
No
We didn't get the chance to be there for the service as we are "#CRAZY"because we have #BPD and are "#TooEmotional..."
#BPD or not
I should have permission to be there
Don't shut us out

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

@GreysABC
"...time of death, 4:52 pm..." I, her baby of ten children, breathed...
As no one called the time of death for some reason
I knew I had to
Gray's, the show, the cast; bff's of mamma & me
In a weird hospital room of 25 of Mamma's loved ones plus a weird nurse
#SOS😿

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

@machinegunkelly You know what;

My wife @SparklesOfBpd,
She first introduced me to your music
#SunToMe gave me chills
You have so much talent

Reach for the stars
Pass beyond all bars
The forces may be drawing in
Believe in yourself and you'll win

You got this
You'd be missed
💕💞💕💞💕

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Damn
@machinegunkelly
You did it
You impressed me to the point of chills
Well done man, well done 👏🎉🥳👏
#Respect
#MustHear
@SparklesOfBpd

https://t.co/z1lSV3jnj7

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

#BPD
nuf said
#MicDrop guys
👏👏👏
#Depression

@SparklesOfBpd

@nonBPDspouse

https://t.co/dPrlkhdlBH

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

This is #BPDLove
My wifey lets me take pics of her, she is the best model
😁😁😁😁💞💕💞

#BPD
Lyric credit to;
@writtenbywolves
💞💕💞

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Ever feel like you have information that would help the one you love most, in the one way that would benefit them tbw most

However

If you tell them, the information becomes void...

Is that just me?...

#BPD
#BPDLife

https://t.co/8LeeRqzYy3

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Damn..

'Wise mind' said "don't #Google your symptoms; just wait until you can see your doc..."

#BPDMind / #BPDMe / my #BPDSelf..

... #BPD ...

🤷

What #Mind you think I heard louder

😅

...#Panic...

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Which #BPD pain would you wish away..?

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

First #BPD title
Next, repeatedly told by "Professionals" AKA- sleeping #PHDs
Not only;
"Because your BPD.. this that and the other"

Manipulated to recite silently;
"Because your BPD & the future your BPD w/chose..You CAN'T be.. WON'T do..WILL harm.. expected to die young"
😞😣

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Lame dumb butt me
Manifested for 24+ months for the opportunity and permission to be granted to take a road trip with our friend
As an hour and a half ago, at random, after pulling an all nighter here we stand, waiting for him to pick us up
#BPD me grumbles...
#MakeTheBestOfIt

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Upon arrival to the "next life" the creator of all grants you the ultimate decision desired by #BPD enduring to our end...
Two options;
An ability for those without BPD traits to "uttermost endure BPD" to comprehend
Or
An ability to heal 10% of every BPDs pains?
🤔🤔🤔

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

Those of us enduring #BPD
Us who not only struggle to make it day to day
Those of us who can't bare more than surviving one breath at a time
We
We are challenged with the only requirement to endure till our end
Aka
Not take our own lives
Anything else we do is #BonusPoints
💢💢

[Ashley M Hard @BPDdragon]

More satisfying than achieving that which is deemed "impossible" for us surviving #BPD

Not the satisfaction of doing what's #PHD recommended to be "Good" for us

No

It's the shocking expression when our enemies realize we proved the PhDs stats wrong/did the #BPDImpossible
🫂