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Product of a violent & abusive father & a complicit mother who enabled him. PTSD.
Grew up in Whitby.
LUFC πππ€ MOT.
ST 11.
I've made many mistakes in my life but I never hit a woman or abused a child & as I write this, my broken πhurts so much. I never recovered from the abuse I lived through as a child & now it's time to go. I hope you all can live healthy & peaceful lives. Love, Martin X
ST 10.
Regardless of what u think about any of this, if you're in a relationship with an abusive partner u need to get out. If you have children, then get out even quicker & BTW staying together for the 'sake of the kids' is child abuse. Domestic violence ruins lives.
ST 9.
My brothers, who won't even discuss my mum's will with me, will deny all of this. They'll say I didn't care. The truth is I cared too much & couldn't bear to see my mum being abused anymore. If she'd left him, it would have been different but she chose to stay..
ST7
Then she dried her eyes & went off to cook his tea, leaving me traumatised. I was just a child. I've known for years that I suffer from terrible PTSD but getting help from the NHS for PTSD is impossible even though I've been diagnosed (by the NHS) with it twice recently.
ST8
March last year, I CHOSE to start drinking again after 26 years of abstinence. For 2 reasons; 1. To give me a few moments of respite from my 'stinking thinking' & PTSD 2. To give me courage to end my life & finally give Martin peace from this never-ending pain & suffering.
ST5
My mum sent me a letter on 17/11/2018. 3 days later, on 20/11/18, she signed her will stating she made no provision for me because she'd had no contact with me for 20 yrs. It was a lie & although this has nothing to do with the money, it was/is the final straw.
(4 letters)
ST6
The final straw in a life that's been so difficult because of the abuse I witnessed, & experienced, as a child. Btwn age 8 & 18, my mum made me her confidant & told me everything. I didn't want to hear it but I sat & held her hand while she wailed & moaned. I never recovered.
ST4
My mother, Marina Billany. Abuse enabler. Always smiling (plastic smiles), always happy (depressed to the core), even though she knew that her violent, evil husband was beating & abusing me. 'Anything to keep the peace Martin.' 'He'll get his comeuppance - just ignore him.'
ST3
My father, Brian Billany. Wife & child beater/child abuser. Possibly the most evil human being I've ever had the misfortune to know. He should have been in prison. I never recovered from his abuse. I suffered then & I told the truth & I suffered again. I can't take anymore.
ST2.
My name is Martin Andrew Billany & I'm ending my life because I can no longer live with the pain of what happened to me when I was growing up. There will be more scheduled tweets (ST's) to follow.
Scheduled Tweet (ST) 1
I've had enough - hopefully the police will see this. @MPSRichmond I live in Richmond London - key's under the mat.
My doctor is Dr. B Sivajee, Seymour House Surgery, 154 Sheen Rd, Richmond TW9 1UU. 020 8940 2802/ 3228
This is nothing to do with Covid.
Domestic abuse murders souls. Get out & if you have children get out twice as fast. 'Staying together for the sake of the children' is child abuse. It make you no better than the perpetrator - it makes you a child abuser too. Wake up, stop the excuses and get out. Now.
Liverpool - taken on one of my Beatles pilgrimages. I'm no photographer but I think I got lucky with this one... Might need a click as @chrisbu03352910 sometimes says... π