There's just something really funny about being "Pro-Life" but also being like "we need to fortify ourselves against feeling empathy for dead babies" lol.
Youre 12 years old, a child and a victim. Im not a therapist so I cant say something that will completely help you through this and the trauma, but as a victim of CSA who was also once in this community when I was a kid, I can give you some advices. Engaging with that kind of+