Bob Smith

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@MONSTROUSONMAIN @BigBork_Spirit I mean yeah, no disagreements here. Just saying that it wouldn't be "myself" as I am now, which is why that advice isn't really applicable.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@1h8kelly @parkourk1d @flaarecore No amount of effort I put it creates any meaningful progress. I've tried, it's just the equivalent of me running on a treadmill. I go nowhere.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@flea_alex I dunno man I'm 35 and have mostly created blank pages. Starting to think I'm not cut out for this stuff.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@dareal705 @flaarecore You can't possibly guarantee that, dude.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@lxvexomb @gakusangel I've been aware of my shortcomings all my life, I'm just too lazy and cowardly to fix em. Hence why I feel bad.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@dareal705 @flaarecore If it was good I'd feel good. Honestly if it was even acceptable for an amateur I could be satisfied. But it's dogshit or just blank pages. Mostly blank pages. So I feel bad. Like it only makes sense.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@joyhappyjoyous @bvectorx3 I'm a fucking waste of space. I can have compassion when I've earned it. I don't see why you're so invested in soothing superficial feelings and stopping me from actually growing.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@SaruuSktch Wanted my whole life to get into it. But I could never fill the blank page. Deep evy for people who can manage it. Honestly, congrats.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@joyhappyjoyous @bvectorx3 Selfish, lazy, unmotivated. No skills, no hobbies, no talents. Never had a romantic relationship. Single digit number of friends I frequently neglect. Just in general contributing nothing and being nothing.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@cowsandwich @flaarecore The appeal to me is seeing cool stuff and wanting to also make cool stuff but in the ways I like. If what I'm trying to do falls short, then like, what am I even doing here?

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@joyhappyjoyous @bvectorx3 Oh everything is fine in my personal life. I have no external reason to be like this. It's purely personal failings.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@ponzischeme9 I'm 35 and still at zero. At this point the prospect just sounds humiliating.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@moltenflax I direct that loathing inwards, where it belongs.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@joyhappyjoyous @bvectorx3 "I'm sick of never accomplishing anything. From now on, things are gonna be different!" Said to myself at least once, usually multiple times a year.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@parkourk1d @flaarecore Because if someone half my age already clears me, it seems hopeless. I can't do a fraction of what they can despite putting in the effort. And they got all the time in the world to improve while I'm clearly just stagnant.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@cowsandwich @flaarecore I want it to be good for my sake, through. Like, that's personally important. I won't feel good about what I make otherwise.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@dareal705 @flaarecore Not necessarily. I have 0 intention of ever showing anyone anything I make and seeing the skill gap is still bleak.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@joyhappyjoyous @bvectorx3 I did, but I'm a fucking liar.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@ashtonshudson Not how this works with me. Every humiliation makes trying the next time feel even more daunting.

[Bob Smith @Briar8355]

@joyhappyjoyous @bvectorx3 Stop making promises for things you can't speak to. That's the whole reason I spoke up.