@RawringXDS@littleviolence Like I do like interacting with his content and watching it and talking about it with my irls but interacting with a lot of the online fandom makes me feel like I’m doing smth wrong bc I look at it and I’m just like, “what would he think if he saw you 😬”
As an aroace person I have a very finicky relationship with the concept of being desired, on one hand I can't help but wish to be desired and fantasize about it, yet often when it actually happens it scares and puts me off, the way people change when they start experiencing 1/5