I have moments where I do feel whole but lately itโs just stress, depressed loneliness & Iโm trying to catch myself before even going thru any of that once again.
I feel a disconnection in my life rn now, it saddens me to feel this incomplete feeling. I really just donโt know wtf else to do or go from here. I feel lost. I try to understand everything for what it is but this lost, emptiness is killin me.
I just donโt wanna crash out on myself ever again, but this stress is literally only making me slightly depressed & thatโs something I NEVER wanna go thru again.
Iโve been sober since January of this year & now actually dealing with my mental & emotions has been somewhat hard for me & of course I wanna ignore it all by gettin high but I know itโs not what I should be doing fr.
If I had acres of land I swear to god I would rescue any & all animals that have been in shelters for more that 1 month. I would love to give all these babies a better life. Cats & dogs. I genuinely salute those who volunteer to help / foster animals.