i’m not endless and i’m not unconditional. i require an exchange. i do need to benefit in some way and i stand by that. i have needs and desires and i am important. im essential as well.
my goal is to write my first philosophy book by like 40 or younger, hopefully by way of a doctorate program. i obviously don’t know the topic but i for surely need to live and ponder before i start. work out my own philosophies before they turn into full literature.
I care about strangers because the people I love are strangers in the world and I would hope other people would care for them in moments of their life that occur outside of my presence. Not that complicated.
i told my therapist that i let some things slide that bother me to "keep the peace" and she told me "that sounds nice, but you're keeping the peace around you...what about the peace in you" now I just been saying whatever is on my mind. 1/2
“what are you gonna do”
the benefit of having a sag 9th house is i know the hidden locations where no one really lives or travels to that i plan to disappear to. i’m gonna be in some place with rolling hills & cottages with a population of 20 ppl some day. no news, only cows
one thing i’ve noticed as an 8th houser is that when people can’t read me, perceive or access me, it really angers them. when i have a natural boundary or reserve myself, it triggers people so bad and then they start doing things that show me why that access was not granted