I love that I do not fake no funk. If I don’t like something I just do not like it & will not pretend like I do. Authenticity radiates through me at all times
Threatening to break up
Silent treatment
Blocking and deleting texts
Moving from 0 - 100 real quick
All traits of someone with disorganized attachment style.. Everything they’re doing isn’t about you, it’s in a bid to regulate their nervous system cos they’re triggered.
Because communication feels like vulnerability, cos there’s a chance of rejection, they avoid it. Instead they do all these funny gimmicks to gain back control of their nervous system. It’s pathetic and trust me, you can’t change such a person
I keep on revisiting this. You might not realize the depth of what he said. In urdu poetry, there is a concept where poets view God as a lonely being, so lonely that He created free willed humans for company. Loneliness is a Godly trait & whoever enters its realm meets God there
This is why I revoke access to folks who mishandle my kindness. Kindness is the bare minimum. You are a very sick & twisted person if you assume kindness means you’ve conquered someone or established some type of power play — ironically, this is how you announce your inferiority.
A real sign of healing is when you stop taking everything personally. You begin to see that people act from their own patterns, their own wounds, their own stories. Their behavior is about them, not you. And the moment you understand that, life feels lighter.
There’s a certain type of privacy & alone time I require in order for me to feel like I’m still functioning and operating as an individual. I cannot do the codependency or enmeshment.
The older I get, the more I realize the power of emotional consistency. The ability to show up as the same person when you’re tired, stressed, or under pressure. Anyone can shine when life is smooth. It’s rare to remain steady even when the day gives you every reason not to.
i think a constant theme in my life is to be more self-centered. every time I don’t put pouring into me first I’m shown why that was an awful decision.