nothing can replace the things we did together. nothing. i can't get my first time back. my first love. my first prom. my first everything. you can't find something like that again. i know ill hate you if i can't have you. how could u yk
it'll probably be the most evil thing i've done. to see somebody else in someone. i can't live if i don't do that tho. best case scenario is i find someone who acts like you, but i end up loving them more. but i doubt it.
it'll probably be the most evil thing i've done. to see somebody else in someone. i can't live if i don't do that tho. best case scenario is i find someone who acts like you, but i end up loving them more. but i doubt it.
if i can't have you, if i can't kill myself, i will make it my life's goal to find someone like you. i will see your blue hair wherever i go. or your pink, maybe your blonde. your purple. rainbow. they won't be you, but i'll be closer than not having you at all.
when your love language is words of affirmation and you're with somebody who can't say how they feel and genuinely sucks at reassurance and will tell u the worst thing that will terrify u while holding u back from how they feel ๐ญ๐ญโ๏ธโ๏ธ
like you come to me, i give u advice, you don't use it and continue to be miserable, im gonna be upset u didn't just take my advice instead of being okay with being miserable. like u just sound stupid to me, like why make things hard i don't understand like ik ur not happy??
i think i hate emotional people, as someone who is emotional and reactive, ive learned to prioritize logic and separate it from my feelings, like emotions make everything harder like just because u don't want to do the most logical thing to make everything easier -
but what helps more in the long run? ding ding ding, logic. it's always been logic. like i hate the "sometimes people don't want a solution, they want to express how they feel" like ok and what does that help??
"i'm saying, i built a wall around a big part of my life, and i hid behind that wall, and i thought that wall kept us both safe. but walls don't work that way, walls never work that way"
peak character development