Music and DnD Lover. I don't play any instruments but I go ALL OUT dancing, headbanging, etc. DnD love the art, community, acting, imagination coming from it.
I'm a cardiologist. Hayden Panettiere died at 36. Toxicology is pending, and I won't speculate about what killed her. But I want to say something about what her death should force us to confront, because I think we're going to get this wrong the way we always do.
She had already done everything we tell people to do. She spoke publicly about addiction. She named the postpartum depression. She wrote the memoir. She was told her liver damage could kill her within five years and she said it out loud, in interviews, to an audience of millions. She did the disclosure. She did the reckoning. She got the applause for being brave.
And she died at 36 anyway.
Here's the uncomfortable thing I need you to understand: that is not a contradiction. That is the disease. Addiction is a chronic, relapsing brain disorder with high fatality rates even among people who have insight, support, resources, and genuine periods of sobriety. Relapse is not a moral failure or evidence that someone wasn't really trying. For a substantial percentage of patients, it is the expected clinical course. The body does not care how eloquently you articulated your trauma, or how many people celebrated your journey.
We have built an entire cultural performance around public recovery, and we have quietly confused disclosure with protection. Someone tells their story. We call it progress. We share the interview. We buy the book. And we feel, collectively, that something has been solved. Nothing has been solved. The underlying drivers remain exactly where they were — untreated or incompletely treated psychiatric illness, unaddressed trauma, easy access to potent opioids, the neurobiology of tolerance and craving that does not respond to insight, and the systems and people who enabled it in the first place.
A memoir is not a treatment plan. And I want to say something specific about naloxone, because it's the piece most misunderstood. Naloxone reverses opioid-induced respiratory depression. It is extraordinary. It saves lives when it reaches someone in time, and everyone reading this should have it and know how to use it. In most states you can get it at a pharmacy without a prescription. But naloxone is harm reduction, not treatment. It buys minutes. It does not rewire the circuitry that drives someone back to the next dose after years of trying to stop.
And in my own field, I'll add the part rarely said: opioid overdose kills through respiratory arrest that becomes cardiac arrest. By the time the heart stops, hypoxic injury to the brain and heart may already be irreversible. The window is measured in minutes. Which is precisely why the drug has to already be in the room, and why someone has to be there to give it.
Here is what actually reduces mortality, and it is unglamorous:
Medication for opioid use disorder — buprenorphine, methadone, naltrexone. These substantially reduce overdose death, and they remain badly underused, badly stigmatized, and hard to access. If you take one clinical fact from this post, take that one. Treating the psychiatric illness underneath, properly and continuously — not as an afterthought to the addiction. Naloxone in the home, in the bag, at the workplace, everywhere. And sustained care long after the public has moved on — which is the thing our attention span is structurally incapable of providing.
Hundreds of thousands of people have died of this same physiology, under the same mechanism, without a single headline. We notice when the face is familiar. We extend more grace when there's a redemption arc attached. That selective attention is itself part of the problem — because it means our response is shaped by narrative rather than by mortality data.
Toxicology will eventually clarify the mechanism. It will not answer the harder question: why a woman who had already named the danger, with every resource available to her, still ended here at 36. That question belongs to all of us — to medicine, to an industry that consumed her from childhood, and to a culture that prefers the drama of a fall and a partial recovery over the tedious, expensive, imperfect work of keeping people alive for decades.
Addiction is not a story. It is a high-mortality disease. We should treat it like one — with medication, with sustained care, with naloxone in every home, and with a great deal less applause for disclosure and a great deal more funding for treatment.
Rest in peace, Hayden. Thirty-six.
Had fun at the NTE booth today seeing the setup and cosplayers, tried the mobile version and it's definitely better than previous beta. Hope for the game to have a smooth launch! #NTE#NevernesstoEverness
People gotta stop treating sprouts like crap for not knowing anything about a story trial/fight before hand.
It's. It's their first time? Trial and error can't exist anymore? Do they need to spoil themselves on mechanics before getting into it?
The new school year is almost here. A hungry child cannot really concentrate on learning.
We have to feed our children so our future is not under educated.
My time at Riot and on TFT as a Game Designer has come to an end. Just under 10 years, and to be honest I thought it was going to be longer, but sometimes things change.
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I’m so grateful for what I was able to be a small part of, and able to accomplish in the last decade. It’s been a dream career, and I have got to do so much thanks to Riot. Even trying to list it all feels insane what I managed to do in this time. And the crazy 7 years on TFT where I got to design, balance, teach, lead, and more for my job, but then also build a community, stream, cast, go to events…it’s just been amazing. Ending on stuff like the Unlock system and a couple other things…I’m heading out proud.
To everyone I worked with over the years, thank you for letting me be a part of everything we accomplished. I hope I managed to teach you something or bring you joy in some way. I genuinely hope our paths cross again in the future.
To everyone who supported TFT or me over the years, you have no idea what it means to me. I cherish all the moments over the years, and they’ll keep me going. I am so blessed to have been a part of your lives and thank you for letting me bring some fun into your world.
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So…what’s next for me? I’m trying to figure that out.
First off, since I was on sabbatical and am terrible at relaxing/not working, I have been making my own small indie game. I’m about 2 months into development and have already had folks playtesting some early builds. I’d say the game is like 20-30% done, but my goal is to release it as a full game. It’s been fun keeping my skills sharp in a different space, and I hope to share it with you all someday.
Beyond that, I’m keeping my eyes open for other opportunities. I’ve had a few conversations here and there already during my Sabbatical. It’s a brutal industry right now, so I’m taking one day at a time and figuring out what’s next for me, whether it’s working on another studio’s game or even my own thing.
And I’d love to find a space to do some content creation and be able to share my knowledge of game development. But that may take some time to figure out how to do it right.
-------------------------------------------------------Again, thank you for everything these last 10 years. It’s a big change and I’m nervous but hoping it all works out. Until next time, take it easy!
-Mort
I’m absolutely honored to join the incredible cast of @finalfantasyvii & taking up the mantle of Sephiroth in this third installment. I know how important he is to so many, and I come at this with absolute respect & heart.
Excited for you all to experience Revelation! #FF7R
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I got into the FF7 space because the discussions were fun, not exhausting.
Lately, it’s been more of the latter.
Nobody has the answers. No interpretation is currently right or wrong. They've purposefully built mysteries in order for discussions to happen, not for people to argue incessantly as it seems to happen on this site.
Of all the things the devs had said, perhaps we should focus most on this one: "we won't know how the story ends until it's actually finished."
For my part, if anything I’ve pitched is wrong, that’s fine with me. I just hope we can have fun with it.
More than anything, I just hope 2027 can feel like 2019 did.
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Hope isn’t blind optimism — it arises in the face of uncertainty. If you look at our history, we’ve gone through some rough patches. But we tend to come out on the other side of them stronger than before.
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It was inspiring to watch the Artemis II launch yesterday — @NASA’s first crewed mission around the moon since 1972. Our space program has always captured an essential part of what it means to reach beyond what we thought was possible, and I hope the four brave astronauts on this mission will inspire a new generation to follow in their footsteps.