i always feel like i’m on the verge of being abandoned like if im not constantly interesting & perfect & fun & react perfectly everyone will reject me. like i have to constantly Perform to justify my existence
as of today i’ve officially lived in chicago for 10 years—longer than i’ve lived anywhere else. i can’t meaningfully articulate how much this place means to me except to say that it is home, and that it is the only place ive ever felt that about