should’ve given up

i have to get my thoughts out somewhere right?

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i have so much i want to say to you but im afraid if i do then whatever it is that we have will end

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it was only the hope of what you could’ve have been for this that i fell in love with. the slivers of moments that showed your potential but it wasn’t the reality. so why can’t i stop loving you and why does it still hurt so fucking badly

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i haven’t been okay since you left.
you were not good for me
you did not show up for the relationship or for me at all
you wouldn’t do the bare minimum basics that a relationship requires
so why does it still hurt like this.

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and just like that i stopped looking out the window to see if you came by to mend this, i stopped checking my phone to see
if you finally texted me, i stopped waiting for someone who was never going to ever show up for me in the first place..

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i don’t want this to harden me. but i feel like ive been ruined.
and i lovedd how deeply and entirely my heart loved..

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i looked at you as forever when your eyes only saw temporary in me

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everything about this is not fair
why do you get to be fine and i’m destroyed when you’re the one who broke this.

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will the hurt ever go away

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i hate it bc i wish she actually was trying to fight for us but she never has and she never will

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i hate that i sent such a thought out thing to say to her and she replies with something that has zero substance and negative zero indications of wanting to do better

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i hate that because i was the one who was serious about this
im the one that gets fucked over

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did she mean to break me the way she did?
because my entire reality has shattered..

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it’s a weird thing.. having to leave someone in the past just because they haven’t done the work to heal themselves and are not ready for something that is real, genuine, healthy, something that could make it to forever
but i still love her. but i have to just let go.. ?

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i remember the moment i knew i was in love with her
i remember all the times i wanted to say it but was scared..
i remember when i first saw her
…i know now that love at first sight is real.
because as soon as i saw her, i knew i was done for..

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i have a mess of a mind and i understand the reality of the situation but i can’t fully get the good moments out of my head

even if i was just reading into the relationship-putting more heart and love into it than what was reciprocated..

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it’s so crazy how deeply in love i fell for someone that wasn’t even ever all in with me

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i guess i just assumed our intentions were at the same level coming from the same place of sincerity

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it just turns out that i just thought more of this situation that what it really was